139.4 Who do you cry to???

It was a very rough evening last night. After climbing off the bus I started to get an ear ache. My tummy felt like an old grumbler. I quickly ate my allotted foods of fish cooked in coconut oil and little grape tomatoes a handful. Snarfed down my apple. Went over the allotted amount of melba rounds. Ate a few more almonds. Finished dinner for the little boys made them come home from tracking a deer with the Hubby. Got everyone to bed ate more almonds and then called my partner. HELP HELP I am going to crash tonight. My head is killing me, I have the worst ear ache, and I want food way bad. She said do not cheat! You already blogged that you wanted to see a new number. She read my blog post to me, "see you want it, skinny tastes better then food right now" and the best saying of all "I CAN DO HARD THINGS"! Then she goes and tells me that she just can't keep going. WAIT WHAT! What am I talking to you for then. She made me feel so good telling me I am the little sister here and you are my big sister and look at you you are way smaller then me keep going your going to be fine even if its too hard for me. I said "so you already quit"? "Yes I have quit everyday this week after lunch but you keep going". HURUMFFF All night my head hurt even after taking something to help stop the pain. But by morning I felt better and I have had the best day ever not one hungry pain at all. When stopping at my Sisters house (partner in HHCG) there on her fridge she has a big goal pic posting with the I can do hard things around the photos of what she wants to look like again. She tells me that she made it through today and she will keep going. What a relief because I really need her to stay as strong as I am trying to stay too.

WILLPOWER I have it, I can make it to my goal, I can.

Lunch: 3.5 oz raw weighed shrimp, cucumber with salt and an apple. Melba toasts on the side.

Dinner: 3.5 oz pre cooked chicken with water and fresh spinach boiled to make a light soup with melba rounds. And orange in hand and out to watch my C boy play a great game of football as the starting linebacker.

141.0 I want past this number right now!

Tomorrow I want to be at the 140 number instead and then just keep moving down from there. My pants are all hanging again. I have got to buy a belt that will get me through till I can hit the goal point and really have a reason to buy new fancy jeans or pull from my stash that I have stored. I am resisting the desire to run and run in the cool fall air of morning. I promised myself this round I would not exercise to see the difference in how I lose which seems to me about the same as if I do exercise. Slow and steady with lots of back and forth is how it seems to go for me. A person must remember that its not all about the scale that would be why its called Pounds and Inches. There are spots on me that seem thinner and more shapely every day sorta like I had a mini liposuction session if there were such kind of a thing. Of course the skin is baggy where the babies in my life stretched me out but that's how it was after my first and second when I didn't have much weight to lose many years ago. My very skinny mother in law would say it just never goes away once it got stretched out that far. My partner has a cool scales that does your Body Mass index I think I am going to take a day and stand on it to see where I am going in that area, Its been along time since I stood on one of those and measured that area.

143.4 See I told you so but I am making it.

Not bad but ya the scale went up. We had a lovely dinner at Steve's Steak house. I only had steak ends, 6oz worth and I couldn't tell where to cut it down to where 3oz would be but its ok for one night right. My partner in HHCG my little sis is back working to get off the rest of her pounds now. Its nice to have a buddy to share the rough physiological moments with, like your not hungry but you just want to eat it days. Long day of cabin cleaning and making beds but its going for a very good cause so it makes the work light. I am going to remind myself I am working hard to get on down the scale to finish my goal off reaching to 120lbs. I am making it I am.

147.0 Getting hormonally in order and a date what a combo.

That Aunt Flo she sure messes things up sometimes. I am so tired I can hardly get a move on.

My partner that I haven't said to much about in awhile we took different paths for a bit. The other day she called and said" well if there is one thing that HHCG did for me its to make the visitor a regular one now instead of skipping two or three months at a time". She wasn't so sure that was that nice even though it does mean that her body is not as hormonally out of wack as it used to be. I have to agree I am pretty regular now and it was out of hand after my last couple babies and the many steroids and meds that I had to have during their births and leading up to my last birth.

So kudos to regularity after years of mixed up body signals that's a plus for HHCG and me.

I had a date meet with the hubby and I am pretty sure that I will pay the scale price again. We haven't gone out for a moment alone for quiet a bit, to many kid activities that trumped our alone moments. It was Wingers sticky food which of course is going to mean lots of sugar in the sauce but thats ok it made him sweeter for the evening alone ;)

154.2 OOOOh

Well the scale is moving down small but down. I shouldn't have eaten the dressing yesterday maybe but who knows. I am flipping freezing again not sure if that's because of the body or because its snowing on the mountains and raining in the valley around me and makes our house cold again.

Inches are coming off and I have got to get a 20 day measurement on my record keeper. I put a pair of pants on that were tight in March and they were like a bag on me today. I had to wear a belt to keep them up. My waist is so much smaller yet my hips are still holding on to the fat cells. I started to think about how the wait packs on to my body with each child that I gave birth to. Two times I have started a pregnancy at 110 pounds each time the weight went on my hips towards the back first. This must be where its going to come off last. It makes sense to lose from the last placed cell to the first placed cell. Just like when you build with blocks. You can't start a building in the air, what happened to the foundation? It's all in how your body places it. My partner places it all over so it comes off all over also. She looks amazing and not lumpy in spots like I seem too look. Man if I had known what I know now and went through a pregnancy things would be so different I think.

Lunch: Curried Tolapia on a wasa cracker, strawberry, cucumber salad with apple cider vinegar dressing.

Dinner: Turkey burger with mixed salad greens on a wasa cracker and an apple.

Miles: I can't seem to get any miles in today or at least recordable ones on a treadmill or planed track route.

This girl hit the Probiotic info right on the nose I totally agree, click link to see her info.

I feel so gooooood!!!

Treadmill run/walk 4 miles whoo, some day I will be able to run the whole time.

My partner said that she has stayed right at the same weight that she ended at so I guess it can be done. I just haven't seen that with my body yet. Crazy body still up and down. 160.8 today and the loading days are coming sooooon to start on another round and move on down the scale.

Sample of what I ate today so far. Breakfast shake with flax seed ground up, milk, ricotta cheese, frozen peaches and some almonds. YUMMY! Lunch was an omelet with red peppers a tiny bit of left over hamburger from dinner last night, a zucchini, and some asparagus with Havarti dill cheese on the top. I think I will have a mini steak for dinner tonight with lots of onions but we shall see.

Drinking water I have found is way important. If I miss now I feel dehydrated and I also hang on to the weight lots more.

Crazy weekend so much fun!

Sat 162.2 Sun 160.6 today 159.8. So I have maintained and even dropped after having an amazing weekend with the best extended family around. I usually have time to post but nope to busy. I tried to track what I ate so I knew if I went up, but didn't do well keeping that record. My partner told me when I was worrying about being up a bit on Sat; she said "hey your ok its not that high on the scale yet." So for brunch I ate some vanilla yogurt and berries and tiny bit of homemade granola, peer pressure and I had just traveled two hours to attend a bridal shower couldn't be rude and not partake. Then the real lunch was at Outback I ate their yummy blue cheese salad with the dressing on the side, asked for veggies instead of potatoes, and that they leave the seasoning off the Salmon. I did use a tiny bit of the dressing which tasted overly sweet. It's interesting to note that to me things that have sugar added are overly sweet to eat and I would rather not have it added in the dressing at all if I made it myself. Of course I think this sweetness that I can taste in things has come since I did the Hcg diet. My partner is seeing the same results to her tasted buds. I snacked on almonds and an apple and an Oppsie rolls off of Cleochatras LOW-Carb blog recipes the rest of the day.

Sunday was a whirlwind of activity and I think I ate a smoothie with peaches and flax seed in milk and steak later with cauliflower, broccoli and carrots. And then late dinner of oppies that I had frozen.

So that catches me up to today and the great scale reading and the lovely Aunt Flo visit which very well could be why I was higher on the scale the days before.

The dang chocolate crave is back with Aunt Flo and so I had some sugar free Russel Stovers on hand and dang that silly Stevia Chocolate water. I sorta ate like a 500 call today as I was just not at all hungry except for that Choco need. Had Chicken breast for dinner and laid around most of the day today.

I think I am not as Carb sensitive as some others might be but time will tell.

Still waiting to see if I won new work out clothing from Shut Up and Run blog click and enter if you want to try it too.

159.2 on the morning scale. 24.8 POUNDS GONE

I think I am loosing it, I thought today was the the day I got to eat. Started to drink some whole milk and then called my partner and said something about do you think milk is allowed on P3? Big discussion and a few min later she says are you already drinking it? What are you doing today is the third day off the drops tomorrow is when we eat. GOOD GRIEF thank goodness I have her I must have lost a day somewhere in there with kids being out of school. I am now laughing but mad because I woke up to find that I lost another pound. 24.8 on the scale now whooo. I have reached my goal that I wanted and I could have just muffed it all up there is still HCG in my system and so it would have not continued to burn the last of the fats and would have just burned up the milk and eggs and olive oil that I was planning on eating this morning. I am so happy and ready to jump up and down about hitting my goal desire. I would not recommend doing a 40 day unless you have nerves and control of steal. I want to eat more then 500 cal so bad that its really hard to not slip. Going for 33 days would have been more manageable but of course hind sight is always better.
I did Denise Austin Pilates for every body. Its for strengthening and toning. It felt so good and stretched new spots in my body I love the feeling of getting toned. I wish my stretch bands were not so tight but they will get lose with time.

Lunch fish soup with cucumber strawberries salad and of course my three liters of french vanilla stevia water.

160.2 pounds down today! YAHOOOOOOOO.

I get to count today and tomorrow as a loss and this was reward today another pound gone that takes me to 23.8 pounds gone in my first round so far. I am so excited today because i had held at 162 or 161 for so many days. Lesson be patient with your body. My partner and I have been discussing that we will do our P3 round and start back on another P2 round right after so that we can try and lose the last 40 pounds that we need off. Ok so I am being optimistic at getting all 40 gone but that's ok I can be. Then the summer will be in full swing and we will maintain until the school year starts again. Pictures will be coming up soon just give me time.

Lunch curried fish with apple green leaf salad and a yummy apple cider lemon dressing with stevia garlic and onion mixed in. I am missing my melba toasts or grissini's. They were nice while I was taking the HHCG but thats ok I am on a mission to get smaller.

Dinner was Onion chicken broth, I just cooked the chicken and onions in water with braggs amino acid and garlic mmm on a cold night. I am way tired to night and not hungry for anything else that warmed the body.

I had a warm cup of tea and I actually am starting to like it with the stevia in it warms me up at night.

164 Wii 28.BMI 163.4 New scales

Oh ya that Dr.Amen yesterday said that a person should watch their BMI and it needs to stay below 30 to keep from being sick and having all kinds of problems.
AAAAAAHHHHHH this up and down makes me crazy by tomorrow it will be going down again. I think I must really need to be careful what I eat on phase 3 and make sure that I do not miss tracking what I eat so I can tell what foods would make me go back up on the scale in the end. Missed my goal workout this morning but I am going to try to get to it all day.
Lunch Crab with spinach and an apple and melba toast is the fare for the noon meal.
Changed did an orange instead and grissini stick. The orange just sounded better today.

Well I got some Yerba mata not sure I am going to like it. My partner cheated over the weekend and so she is on a quest to lose the two pounds and get back with me. So she already tried the tea and said it was not that great. So coffee drinkers I guess this one would be great for you. This is going to be tough for me since I do not like teas. It is supposed to lower your cholesterol level. Well I guess that's great I have no idea what mine is at so oh well.

So dinner was hamburger with my favorite picante sauce made enough for the whole family and now its all gone. Wasa cracker bun very full. Ate my apple at 5 because I couldn't get to dinner till 7:30pm. Isn't that just crazy one min your hungry and another you are too full. Well I am really agreeing with what Dr. Adkins says in his book wish I could express it all here but that's not realistic, just go get the book and learn. I drank some of the Yerba mata tea yucky but with enough French Vanilla Stevia I got it down. It did have a creamy taste at the end. I combined it with Dieters tea, trying all the tricks to get that last little ounces off before Day 40 hits. I read several things on the Yahoo groups and learned some new insights about ways to do P3 making sure to not gain back in that phase. Most of all I still think it comes down to portion control and cutting all the bad white carbs out of your diet and making sure you exercise consistently.
Drinking Yerba mata tea around 8 Pm. Bad idea I had a hard time going to bed. I have not really ever been a caffeine seeking person so it really hit me hard.

168.6 New Scales

This morning explains why I am still just sitting at the same weight spot. TOM came to visit or Aunt Flo as others call it. That tells me why I had a headache last night and felt hungry and couldn't pass the M&M's that my girl held out to me. I also drank chocolate stevia water yesterday in kind of a craving type mode felt it would help and it did. Funny note here. My little guy who struggles with lots of things will not drink enough water. This causes some struggles on the other end since there isn't enough washing the system shall we say, well he likes anything chocolate and I tricked him yesterday into drinking lots of water in the name of chocolate water. He kept asking for the chocolate milk water. So I think I have now found a cure to the not enough water in his system too. HEEHee.

My partner told me that during her Flo visits she felt more hungry and the cravings were more intense so that's a good thing to note and not beat myself up over.

So I had egg white pancake made with my grissine sticks and strawberries as sauce. It was sorta ok is all I am going to say about my creation. I took my apple with me and later that day went to dinner at a fancy restaurant and shared my flat iron steak with my daughter and ate all the green salad. She ate all my fries and veggies and the biggest part of my steak. It worked out pretty good. I couldn't measures the size amount but I made it be smaller then my fist so I think I should be ok. Besides with the Aunt visiting who knows. This morning was a shocker since I was so tired I could hardly wake up what happened to that lovely bubbling energy that has been with me and my nice deep sleep. Ok blame that dang Aunt Flo.

Wii167.3 BMI 28.57 167 New scales

This is a nice morning no hungry pains last night or all day for that matter yesterday. I can feel the muscle pull where I did the leg lifts the night before and it feels tighter. I did side leg lifts this morning 30 both sides of course on my soft bed. I need a mat for my floor so I can do that with the Wii strength training. I am sucking my gut all day to help firm it up. I can definitely tell there is stretched skin from births. Well you can't go all the way back or you wouldn't have your little angels would ya. My partner is so goofy she called me and said "I am MELTING YES MELTING away." Not really but since she carries it all over that's how she feels about the fat cells being depleted. I need to get some of that YERBA MATA tea. If it really helps to sluff off the old unused cells lets get rid of them. That is saying a lot for me because I hate drinking tea. Even when I was a kid and my Mom would say "herbal tea is so healthy and good for your body as long as you do not drink it really hot." Bleak bleak bleak and make that another double bleak I didn't care. So they say raspberry tea helps keep your blood pressures down and aid the baby during pregnancy, here's me gaging it down. I always felt like it was just weakly sweetened water. So as you can see with this said I just drink my Stevia flavored 3 liters of water in the morning. Well I try to get the majority down by 12:00 noon so that I am not up at all hours of the night trying to sit on the throne because I didn't get it all drank early enough. Kudo to you beverage drinkers.

Lunch will be shrimp today and tomorrow so I am preparing ahead as I will need to do the salad in a baggy deal. Not sure the combo yet I'll get back with you tonight.

Oh the funny thing is my partner and I are both having days where we are grouchy or hungry both on the same day. Isn't that strange. Well we were both almost the same weight at the start point but it has seemed surprising to us to have the same kinds of emotional feelings on the same day. It also makes it easier to know that the day will be tough together.

GOAL: 6:00 am strength train right after getting on the Wii for 30 min everyday, except I have to leave really early before six tomorrow.

So lunch combo Curried shrimp with stevia on top of tomatoes slices. A lovely orange that I ate later in the day with grissini sticks.

Dinner Fish soup with Wasa cracker and think onion slices. That was yummy. I also made strawberry lemonade a bit weak because of adding to much water but that's ok. I also used all of my strawberries in the drink instead of just the two that the recipe calls for.

I didn't have one single hungry pain or craving need.