137.4 Eating raw

Part of the Dr. discussion yesterday was that he told me he never says to someone who wants to lose weight "if you want to lose weight go start exercising." Instead he says "cut what you eat down and make it raw." Why raw, well because your body has to work harder to burn the raw foods down so your bodies calorie burn is better. Now if you have say a child like Jer it is better to cook all his foods so that he gets a higher easily broken down calorie amount since he eats so little in the first place. If you want to be in better shape and have better muscle mass that's when you should exercises but it is not going to make you lose as much as if you cut your portions of eating down. So there is a bit of diet to this not just the HCG at work but that's ok because it has worked for me so I will keep on doing a round every once in a while if its necessary to stay down on the scale and the inches.

This morning weight is now back to what it was a few days ago. THANK GOODNESS I was getting worried. I do not know why I worried because I put pants on this morning that I wore back 12 years ago. I had kept them saying I lost somehow once I can do it again. They were some brand new ones that I had gotten and then ended up pregnant with my 4th child. That was the year I had returned to my 110 pound weight for the first time in 10 years since getting married and having my very first pregnancy. Wow a person who has had 7 children and 10 pregnancies really truly ca get small again. I am living proof of that possibility.

SO ALL of YOU IF I CAN YOU CAN. JUST DO IT.

Breakfast: Water with chocolate Stevia

Lunch: Raw spinach, 2 melba rounds, apple and then killer sandwich with the Hubby.The veggies inside were all raw but and the bread was whole wheat but way to much and out of protocol and the turkey most likely has a sugar added as it was from a deli cut. I do not get to eat dinner is what I have decided after the sandwich. . When you hit that major starve stage because it is hours past regular eating it just ends up not being a very good thing and I just need some food today who cared what it was by the time it hit 2:oo pm

164. lbs Movein on down again.

WHEEEW at least its moving down again. I have 5.4 to lose to get back to the ending point of my first round. I was so scared that it would not go down. Why did I feel that way when I knew it worked the first time I did it. I am not sure except that our brains as women (can't speak for a guy) can really tell ourselves some whopper lies and talk us out or in whatever that matter might be. I still think back to when I didn't think I was in an Obese category and that others were and the lie I gave myself. Thank goodness I at least tell myself more positive things more often then negative things. The joy to feel so energized and able to get stuff done is wonderful. Now let me be honest here. The kids can destroy the work I did in a matter of moments and I feel like I will never be unburied from the laundry land that 7 kids (that is including the hubby) make. There are two of them that do their own laundry but there is always some of theirs in ours. The dishes have to be done many times over and without fail every time I mop I wonder why I did because two seconds later something is dumped on the clean floor. I tell myself this too shall pass over and over again. I have no room to be OCD with this many kids in my house.

I have to make a chart for my measurements. The fat rolls are smoothing out all over my body and that is such a nice thing to notice but the ruler would say the biggest changes so I better record it for my eyes to see the gradual changes that my body is making.

POWER OF THOUGHT SO SO SO STRONG! I did a RUN/WALK 3 miles go me.

Dr. Mercola has some things that will make your brain mull over I am always ready for other opinions. It just gives me more power to my desire to learn is what I say.

Dr. Mercola talkes about a sweetener called Agave. I really liked the info that I came to understand better just in an over all educated bases about sweeteners and what they can do to our bodies just because of his article. Read this link to learn more. yep click that back there and it will take you to the article.

Lunch: Fish with Curry Tomatoes and Stevia sprinkled with salt. Grapefruit half.

Dinner: Venison Steak with Stevia Carmel Onions and fried apples.

February 22, 2010 179, BMI 30.56

IT REALLY IS WORKING! I want to tell people and then talk myself out of it. I need to be believable and I am just starting so calm down girl. I could have gotten it for so much less money back when whoever it is that called me and told me about it and I dismissed them, good grief that was stupid on my part. But I guess we each have to learn and come to acceptance. Water sure holds a lot of energy inside it if we will just partake of it. I have no more headache or pressure from the water intake I also am not having to have as many relief stops to empty the water out of me. I am getting through the day all the way without the usual burn out feeling that hits me around 2 to 4 p.m. The pounding is still there, but my blood pressure is normal. I think about it for a bit and remember that I have at one time been in renal failure and this was kind of what I felt like when I had IV"S in me and all that fluid inside. The big difference is that my tissues are not holding the water this time it is flushing through and that pounding must be my kidneys working to move it out. I wonder if it will lessen over the next days and my body gets adjusted to taking the 2 liters of water that we should all have as adults. My partner lost 3 lbs and thinks she must be just having dumped a ton of water off her. Her turn to be skeptical. She says she is hungry to much and grouchy. As I eat my lunch I think I must have been starving myself through the years. Shrimp and tomatoes with curry sauce. Melba toast and apple. Dinner is Mongolian Beef and Cabbage, orange and grissini sticks. Yuck won't be trying that recipe again. To much cabbage maybe. Skeptical again is it the HHCG or is it just the diet that is making me lose the weight? Would a light amount of working out make me drop more? I feel really grouchy also and emotionally wrung out what is going on here I wonder. Stop doubting and stay true I tell myself and Goodnight.