136.6 Shock drop WOW!

That is the first time that big of a drop has ever happened to me while doing the HHCG, 500 cal diet of Dr Simeons Protocal. Yes my intestinal tract last evening went into elimination mode but not in a you are sick type of mode just the natural normal way that it should. I even slept in rather deeply this morning and upon looking at the scale again the reading was the same as when I had gotten on ealier at my normal 6:00 am time frame and then went back to bed for what I though was going to be an hour and turned into two more lovely need hours.

Lunch: fish orange, melba rounds and spinach.

Dinner Steak, with wasa and apple and too many melba rounds I think with baby lettuce.

140.2 Body Image!!!!!

That's what you get when you mess with HHCG and eat out of the 500 cal. diet order but its ok I will be ok.

2 mile run this morning, yes finally a minute of time for me.

Lunch: Fish with a tomato and an orange and 4 melba rounds. Lemon twist stevia in 2 liters of water. And of course the 10 HHCG drops under my tongue.

Dinner: grilled chicken with curry powder on it. Celery sticks and a wasa cracker. One rather large apple of a sour crisp variety, kept me having pucker thrills in my mouth. 10drops of HHCG and some fizzy vitamin D to. I have been taking this for about a week and I can really tell a difference.

Body image? What do you think about it?

The Hubby and I had a talk as we drove home from the Doc yesterday and this came up. My budding teens made me feel ugly as a mud fence, know this I was always as skinny as a rail then, so it had nothing to do with being fat just not pretty in the face is what I mean. Some but not many boys paid attention to me during those years. Then as I turned 18 into my 20's I was hot, I think I started realizing this when many boys paid attention to me but I still didn't keep much of a belief that I looked very hot. I still had this image that only certain guys liked certain kinds of looks. My Hubby of course went crazy over me, I had moved to this new town and met him. All of a sudden many guys were asking me out, he got all crazy possessive and didn't think it was funny to have other guys ask me out. So he remedied the problem and made me his forever. Well then there is the syndrome that some women suck into; I have my guy so I do not need to try so hard right, well I never really participated in it but I do recall after every pregnancy trying to get back that youthful skinny and a certain glint from a passing guys eye that would say yes I had it back or no I did not have it yet. Of course the Hubby still loved me no matter what.

Now today I told him that I had dressed to look very hot but not because I wanted anyone else to take a look, only because I wanted him to look and I almost couldn't pull the look off because of my scared feeling about others out there in the world maybe looking. Now this has only become a problem because I have finally lost back to a nice sized pants and skinny look but I still hide behind his protections and the fact that I do not have to attract anyone else. Whew thank goodness I do not have to be back in the dating space I am not sure I would do so well. I really have a hard time with the attention that comes now and I realize that many girls in this world that cover themselves with a layer of fat to protect themselves from attention must feel kind of like me today. I am glad this is not always how I feel because it sure could be disabling if a person let it be in their life.

I talked about how I really would rather not have any attention from others, especially guys and yet a person really has no control over that.

The hubby said he liked that I was trying to be healthier and active again and it's nice that the body is in better shape, back to what attracted him in the first place. He desired that I should keep dressing hot even if others paid attention because it would help me to keep feeling like staying in the healthy mode and that's the most important thing to him. He thinks that many guys were always attracted to me back before his day, but there is the phenomena that happens with a guy and they say "she is too pretty I do not have any kind of chance even getting a date with her so why try." So they don't even try and the girl may be left wondering what was wrong with her just because of what messages she is telling her own brain. Well my Hubby didn't care about that phenomena he was older and he knew what he wanted so he went for it. Besides we got set up on a blind date, I think that helps take away the messages that we tell ourselves that might be limiting when we first glance at a person and consider the potential asking out thought.

His goal is that we both get healthier and stay that way, besides we still have lots of kids that need to be raised. The most important to him is the healthy, looking good is a side benefit to boot. My benefit is he is loyal and keeps his manly attractions to others in check because bottom line our personal body image is all a part of what attracts or does not attract us to others.

So in conclusion I guess I just get to keep ignoring looks or statements and focus on being healthy because it is so very important.

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141.8 Gut Rock!!!

HHCG and pizza should be highly avoided and not placed together at all. So I slid back to the past weight and didn't really do anything except the Pizza cheat late last night. It goes to show that Dr. Simeons knows what he is talking about when combining to lose and not doing your own fandagling. Thank goodness the weekend is coming I will be home and it will be quiet.

Breakfast: Warm tea of peppermint.
Lunch: Fish with sauteed tomatoes in coconut oil Grissini sticks and half a grapefruit.
Dinner:Wasa crackers with lean beef burger on a grill and an apple. I didn't eat my veggies. My burger seemed huge for a 3.5oz I had preweighed it then froze it and so my memory serves to say it was about the day that my scales broke so I am wondering if it got a bit much on that one because of my broken foodie scales. Well that's it for the day home to finish salsa and clean up from the wild week of running here and there.

Aunt Flo could also be helping to mess this whole losing process also.

149.9 Soccer Pizza and starting HHCG my 3rd time around.

GRRRRR. Soccer nights are kicking my butt and making the scale go up up up. We were all starving and so it was pizza for dinner. The whole night I felt like a pound weight was stuck in my gut and the stomach rolled and rumbled. In the middle of the night when I awoke to check Jer's oxygen I felt so yucky that I will never eat bread pizza again or at least not from that joint.

I made one of those executive choices and I am starting my Phase 2 Round 3 with Homeopathic HCG in the morning. I have been fighting the scales way to much this last week so it is just best to get dropping and feeling in control with the scale and losing that last now 30 or so pounds since I have slid up the scales a bit over the last week or so.

Driving for three hours isn't that fun for the need to eat loads of good fat but I have done it once and the hospital cafeteria has lots of cream pie and milk shakes work too.

I am having lunch with a wonderful person be jealous, cause I can't wait.

I'm back Round 2 P2 Here we go!

So Wed. the 21st, I left for a family reunion last maintenance meal was done at Wendy's drive in with their chicken grilled pecan salad minus their dressing. We were on the road and I did eat some almonds to stay awake for the drive but otherwise it was a good ending day. That morning is to much of a blur to remember what I ate. But I was 161.0 on the morning weigh in. Like I said up and down up and down. Hopefully my body will figure this whole thing out on the next maintenance round.

Thur. 22 loading day! Out of necessity because of camping I am doing the three days only because I am not going to be able to control all the food sources that I have going on around me. I took it really light this day but it did conist of lots of protiens that were drizzled in butters and more fats then usual. I ate my cookies that I had frozen from a party that I went to when I was in R1P2 since they could be a part of the loading regimen. They aren't your everyday cookies, they were mini exotics and that would be the only reason I would be so crazy as to freeze for a later day.

Fri. 23 Scones scones and more scones were the meal plan that all the family was doing so its something you do not pass up especially with honey butter or raspberry butter on them. I had cream in my milk and chocolate cashews and fried potatoes with chicken kabobs. I did eat white rice with haystacks also.

Sat. 24 morning I wished I was home being able to start the 500 cal amount because I was sick of eating. Two days is enough if you are getting lots of good fats I think; how would I know I didn't haul my scale with me. I figured whatever the pounds got to I would have to just burn it off and make this round work hard for me. Not only was I sick of eating but I felt sick in my insides. After going down like that I am not sure what happens inside of you but it sure seemed like it all packed onto my belly and I spent forever in the bathroom too.

Also I a very sunburned even with lots of sunscreen on and walked over 45 miles during this camping adventure.

So happy to start the next round and eat lighter.

163.8 Wii, BMI 27.96 163.2 new scales

Why do I have to do this up and down at all the strategic spots that I have ever weighed in my life??? Delivered the second to last son at this weight and stayed there for at least two years before my last pregnancy. It was a wild day and I almost didn't get my water drank for all the coming and goings.
Lunch shrimp on grilled tomatoes with grissini sticks and a few grilled onions. I forgot my fruit.
Dinner a bit of roasted beef with a lettuce wrap and apples slices maybe a forth of an apple. No Melba toast I didn't have time to calculate the calorie amount.
The hubby and I watched a show or info doc. on Dr.Danial Amen who promotes Change your brain Change your body, he said some pretty neat things to consider. "One is that the thoughts and things you say are so very important to the length of your life." "If it is continually negative statements that you say how can you ever have happiness and accomplishment and in the long run will shrink your brain and your life." "A very important thing to understand and know is your hormone level." "Also taking into account that if a cholesterol level is low this can cause you to be in a postion to have suicidal thoughts". Wow I guess I haven't ever had that problem but it makes me wonder what a person would not eat or do to have a way low cholesterol level and how the chemical break down would happen in your body. Also isn't everyone toting the keep your cholesterol level low anyway. So this must come back to a body needs good fats to protect the brain. I would really have liked to afforded to hear more of what he had to say but it's not in the pocket book. I need to buy my food more.
My hubby said that after stopping the HCG he heard that it is a good idea to use an estrogen cream like yam cream to help your body. I once had to do that after I felt so whacked out after having my fifth child and it really did help my hormones to settle. I remember feeling more energy and focus and less emotional. So on my list tomorrow is yam cream and yerba mata tea since I only have a week to shake these last few pounds and really didn't want to have to do another round.
The day was spent jumping on our trampoline with the whole family which I haven't done in years and walking a mile to take care of some fencing and then two miles on the tread mill watching shows. I felt great all day.

167.8 Wii BMI 28.64 166.6 New Scale

Back to the 166 YEAH! I knew it would reappear. I have some thoughts about how Willpower is so important. You must want to be smaller so bad that the one tempting M&M is not worth the climb on the scale, or the Key Lime pie that you haven't had in three years. SKINNY has to be the most IMPORTANT to make you get there. Sugar is so much like a drug addiction a bit more controllable maybe for some then others, but isn't that how a drug is too. Well all I know is that it is really fun to be able to see my waist getting smaller and the love handles on my rib cage in the back disappearing. Also on a walk last night with the speedy hubby I was able to keep up and not even get breathless. Now that's a feat that hasn't been for years and years.

To make sure it is clear here I am using HHCG to help my fat be released from my storage areas and help me to lose weight. I eat proteins and minimal carb vegetables and two grissine or melba toasts and one fruit off the list. To equal 500 cal for two meals for my personal round time of 40 days on HHCG and three days off. This is so that I can make my body do a certain set point of weight that will stay there until I do another round or am happy with where my weight is. No sugar or starches allowed until after phase 3 is done. Read on pounds and inches the differences in the rounds.

Lunch will be lean beef(90% 3.5oz 6cal)with onion saute in French Vanilla Stevia (77cal) and wasa cracker(60cal)bun. Grapefruit half with Powdered Stevia on top(64cal). Total cal(231) today's meal. Wishing I could have some spinach but onions are high enough calorie all alone.

Dinner Flounder(90cal) Orange(62cal) Spinach (1cup 7cal)Melba toasts(4= 78cal). That's a total of 468 for the day. Brought to you from my Fitday calorie count.

March 1, 2010 173.9 Wii 172.8 New scales

Well I drank dieters tea last night and felt a huge release in the area where I once had an appendices surgery this morning. Strange that I should feel that now. I strength trained again today very light with things on the Wii. I do not want to lose all my summer walking muscle by not doing anything while on this diet even though it says not to workout hard. I want my core muscles to get stronger too since that's what holds me together. The hubby and my partner sis said they can see that my belly fat is gone and there are changes that they can see. My clothing isn't so tight either. I changed how many times I was using my spray more to what the bottle directions state instead of what the distributor stated. I haven't felt a single change in being more hungry or less energy I was spraying 6 sprays 6 times a day and cut to 7 sprays 3 times. My bottle is supposed to make it 40 days but its looking like it will be gone before that if I keep spraying at the more rate. I now want to go the full 40 days that you can do when you are using Homeopathic HCG. Of course I can change my mind too.

Shesh I gave my kids an after school snack and without thinking I ate a oatmeal chocolate chip bar. PLEASE body don't make me pay for that mistake of human frailty. I feel so nice in my skin.

Lunch Hamburger 3.5 oz lean with onion rings and strawberries. I made the batter off this HCG BLOG that has recipes, I will put a link at the end. Dinner Crab cake with spinach and apple made a vinegar sauce for the dressing that was really good. I was freezing all day again that is hard to handle. I just wear my coat and tell myself I burn more calories and fat when my body is trying to stay warm. Oh also took my potassium and calcium with magnesium again for the last three days.

http://hcgrecipes.blogspot.com/

Join the Homeopathic HCG group

http://www.hcghomeopathicweightlossmethod.com/

Well this site has the button that gets you to the yahoo group for Homeopathic HCG.

Remember you can buy it from me and not have to mix it. It comes in a spray bottle and is premixed.

February 20, 2010, 184.1

Crappy crappy all night. Wanted to go to bed early from feeling so so tired and yet I couldn't sleep. The kids wouldn't be quiet at 1:00 am I had to get up and send them to bed. Couldn't go back to sleep. I have a pounding in the core of my body that is just making me feel crazy. It stops and goes. I have felt it before but I can not remember when that was that it happened. I still feel huge from all the fat food that I am not used to eating. My Blood pressure feels way up even though that hasn't been that way for a few years now. When I get pregnant it always goes up towards the end. My last child it went up half way through and I didn't make it all the way through the amount of time your supposed to stay pregnant. Finally at 6:00 am I feel normal. I got on the scales and gained more. Out of curiosity I got on through out the day and it still stayed the same all day. Ok ok I know your not supposed to do that but I did. I felt pretty good all day. I ate my grissini sticks (found at a health food store) and apple earlier before lunch. I am not sure if I was playing head games with myself or if I was just nervous but I felt like I might starve with the little bit of lunch I was allowed. Hamburger and onion rings fried in water. Oh yeah the Dad took them all to get juicy dripping hamburgers and malts. I sat in the car to avoid the smells after eating my tiny little burger. Fish and asparagus for dinner with melba toasts. The Hubby says "hey why are you not cooking that for me. I like asparagus and fish, well more fish then that though". "Give me a break, I just need to learn and then I will include you in the menu but right now I have to keep my meat at 100 grams so let me learn" I say to him. Besides the kids wont eat fish so why waste it. I ate my apple for a late night snack with aspirin for a raging headache and off to bed.

Note Join the HCGdieters YAHOOGROUP they have great files on the side bar to pull information from like all the names of sugar sneaky manufactures we do not even know what we are eating sometimes because of the disguised names. Some people have good input here but remember they do not agree with HHCG (homeopathic human chorionic gonadotrophin) on this site because they want you to use a Rx brand.

Read about Dr. Simeons way to help hypoglycemia when on this diet. Other tips about why it happens.

Starting a new way to lose. February 17, 2010, 180. straight up.

So I have spent many years being pretty in shape and still having my babies and losing after and then some major stresses came into my life with my last baby. So for the last year I have tried to lose this weight and get back into a better shape. I have walked on the treadmill and around on our bike paths and played with the WII. Gotten discouraged and started to give up and now found HHCG. A friend of mine used it and lost and she was the same kind of person as me working the tail off to see slim results. I have to admit I had to read about it an really get convinced and understand the ins and outs. Because back in Oct. someone had called me on the phone and told me you could lose weight with this and I laughed. That was a steroid or meant to help kids who won't grow plus isn't it illegal was my reply. I also thought how can I tailor this to the way I have to up and go all the time. Ok just not eat, well that won't help I already had tried that route and you do not lose. What about family parties they are always centered around good foods that I do not have to cook. Also how do you drive three hours drinking tons of water and making it to the next relieving stop? Lets see is there anymore crazy excuses I could come up with. Well I started to drink the assigned amount of water after reading Dr. Simeon's manuscript protocol and felt more energy and all around better. I started that about a week before so I could know all the relief spots on my route. I have always sucked at drinking water. I found adding Stevia with all the amazing flavors it comes in that you can get it down really nicely. I did get a headache it seemed from the add pressure in my tissues; anyway thats my assumption. Well after figuring out all my stopping points on the road to appointment's I got prepared to beginning a new phase of feeling skinny and maybe food deprived for about 23 days. Yeah I can do anything to be smaller again!

Find this Manuscript first and read it not once not twice but over and over again till you get it.

There is a life style change that you must be willing to make.

http://hcgdietinfo.com/HCG_Diet_Dr_Simeons_Manuscript.htm