Proud of my Mom

My title today reflects the fact that ya my Mom is getting back into her healthy grove and I am going to say that I am way pleased about it. Even to the point of saying, Hey I am proud of MY Mom. Last year at this time I was filled with the hope that somehow I could show her the path that I had found and the way to lose weight  along with getting really healthy foods into my system and yet I just could not figure out a way. Now today because of my example and dilagence my Mom over the last month at the golden years has gotten to the 199 on the scale after being several several pounds above that point for several years.
She always taught me healthy ways to eat but lots of stress that comes with Mommy years held her in the not able to lose weight area, but not anymore. I too have learned that I must watch when those Mommy stresses show up in my life that  I am learning  to not eat into them but instead face them head on and keep the green food there an kick that nasty stuff that gets me back to fat as far away as I can while I face the Mommy stress at hand whatever that may be.

For me Mothers day started off with a call to South Africa to talk with far away mission boy, priceless. Then the kids at home begging that we go eat the most carb,sugar filled meal of all since we just never ever go get chinese food "except on Mothers Day". When the heck did that become a tradition that I can't remeber being in place past yr 2008. Oh well I caved since if they cooked I would still have to clean up. I ate lots of brocoli beef and chicken with the bread picked off and salad salad salad. They promised that they would eat enough that they would never even need dinner that evening (hmm is that really healthy for kids?)

Home to take a nap that did not happen because instead the Pretty girl gave me a pedicure and a manicure with spring color to go on  my nails. Then I watched as each of her brothers begged to have either thier nails or feet done. Even C boy begged but she would only do his if she could paint his toenails when she was done. He caved in and allowed her, I bet he has a bottle of hidden remover that he would not let on that he had because he is just smart like that or maybe crazy because these boys do things like light potaote booms with the stuff. I mean seriously on Fri. I came home from work to find 3 live fish in my bath tub. Muddy boots on the deck, at least they had changed the water in the field of the Alfalfa hay. Along with one really muddy dog that they were letting in the house. Pre Mothers day tears was the lot I had going on and then lets top it with a trip to the ER because C boy tried to be in a hurry and the lighter fluid explode up on to his face and chest with no shirt on, causeing 2 degree burns to lots of his skin and face.
Mommy stess at its fullest right there and we still had two days to go before celebrating the love that they should show thier Mother.
Anywhoos-
Finally the real Mothers day ended with me talking to that amazing Mom that I have, just before she went to bed.
I love you Mom alot!
Thanks JBS for a good moment to tell about being a Mother and honoring my very own mother.

147.6 Exercise to combat possible stress.

Since Monday I haven't felt like getting up and doing and going with gusto. I had missed my excersise to go work for that dang company early to just get my pride hurt. My body wanted to hold, hold on to foods to that wanted to go up on the scale. I ate lots of things that made me feel yuck. I was angry and had to keep waiting to see what was going to be next. Today is the next I am going back to work. I only do it for this other company because one manager begged me to. He called he asked if I could trust and continue, he hired me, he did not try to fire me and place blame on me where it should not have gone. Will see how today goes.
I did do one good thing Almonds and Cashews are so good for you. Like little brushes in your insides moving bad stuff out. Like white pizza dough and hot dog buns and sticky candy and well I did do one good thing for me I got some from here in the mail that I had ordered and snacked on them yesterday. Pulled my self back to order and have already done my leg lifts and sit ups and side leg lifts and stretching and now I will hit post and then I am walking a mile and then maybe moving to a run for a mile. That's two miles for me today. So glad I am back on track, I think I already have a much better job possibility on the horizon for me. Mind you I only work to keep my far away son on an LDS Mission.

Swearing!!!!!!!!!!!!!! and going backwards?????

Mon.: Scale reading 149.8

Tue.: scale reading 148.0 Talking to authorities again and telling my story.

Wed.: scale reading 148.6 Funeral and scout pack meeting.

Thru.: scale reading: 147.8 Got some peace and was begged to come back to work.

Let me tell you I never do this except when I am very very mad. Monday was and has been one to swear over and accusal has been high and placed on me and now I am furious.

One of the things that gets my craw in a total uproar is when people walk by and see something going on that is of total illegal standing and then they never say a thing nor do a thing about it. Shall I give a small example -- the passing and most likely selling of drugs on school property, mind you elementary school! (yes I turned them in) The turning of an adults head and not telling a parent when their child did something because it's non of their business yet the child is headed for shear destruction of their moral fiber and on the brink of becoming a pregnant teenager because a kid is raping her.(yes I said something even though I didn't know the parents and he landed in jail and is getting help and so is she.)

Then the gaul to accuse someone of stealing an illegal item and releasing them from their employment. Hello I did say illegal item highly illegal and releasing them from their employment. What is this earth coming too. And ultimately the worst a Mother who white washes her sons activities because she isn't into wanting him to get in trouble and yet her very professional job is taking care of youth and counseling youth who do the very thing she is covering for her son being stupid about. Yet he accuses his employee of stealing illegal item and then fires them. Wow ok can I say it again WOW notice I did not swear but I want to. I am a Mom and I have told my kids that should they be stupid and land in jail then I will get them in the morning but expect to sit and think in time out for awhile if they are going to act like a dumb child. Never did I think that an accusal of this sort could be laid onto someone who is impeccably honest and totally forth right so much so that her own Pretty girl says ya I didn't tell you about that stupid friend because you would have told her Mother and she needs to figure out how to get out of this mess herself not with you telling her Mom. Or the Son who tells his friend better not say anything or my Mom will tell the authorities what your doing. Do You get the kind of person that I am. So now I am mad as a very wet hen and there is going to be flames and someone is going to burn for wrongly accusing me of stealing an item left by I guess a guest, and an illegal item at that, when in the act of cleaning and doing my job honestly.

The company who begged me to work for them that is the resort over from the very amazing wonderful honest, clean, trustworthy Deer Creek Resorts made a big mistake. I had a manager accuse me of stealing an illegal smoking item out of a cabin that I did not clean. Things are resolved only because my brother in law is a cop, my best friend is a cop, my nephew is a cop and they realized they made a huge mistake in blaming me. Who fires someone over a supposed missing illegal item who in their right mind? Maybe someone who really is the user hmmmm possibly a manager himself. But I don't trust that company and I will be forever wary and I am for sure looking towards some new employment. I will always recommend Deer Creek Cabins over that other place hands down!
Breakfast-protein drink out the door to work.

Lunch-2 Cucumbers while talking to authorities and filing complaints on above stated disaster.

That was the morning and in the evening upon returning from taking two little guys to do their summer Peewee 4-H show the truck with about 5 thousand tons of trailer and three horses ran out of gas and I had to drive it up a hill being towed and then down two hills to get it home. Nerve wracking and maddening and my elbow is swollen from gripping the steering wheel so hard for that thirty min drive in the pitch black night to get us all pulled home with the white truck that kept me in town so many days ago. I guess I better say as my son calls it, that white truck is NINJA and I am glad it rescued me. But Dinner was at 2:00 am, a Chile beef hot dog on white buns because by that point in time I was staving and had the shakes so bad and my sis in law who had gone ahead of us had dinner waiting for two hours while we had tried to get enough gas into the huge fire engine truck as our kids call it. It has duel tanks and one didn't register right thus it ran out. Whew I am so glad that day ended.

147.4 STRESSERS

One of the major things that can stress me is the paper work that my little guys case demands. I found myself on the phone twice calling back to make an appointment after having left a message and they didn't call back to get him in. Mind you this is for a follow up to see big grow Dr. in Jan 2011, like I have time to call back again and again after leaving messages. That was yesterday. Then today I have to do review paperwork for his disability case or they will be canceling us. Of course it didn't come in the mail until Fri. and it's due back on July 5th when all mail is undeliverable and I have a question and no one was in the office Friday through Monday. Good grief. Top that off with having to sit on the phone for 35 min to be told that it was of course the wrong department and be transferred to the supposedly correct office for another 35 min. Which then the phone hung up when the person was getting ready to answer. RRRRRRGH.

I caught myself eating cereal. WHAT.! I do not even like it because for some reason it cuts my mouth up and leaves the driest taste inside it and most of all it's bad for you. I haven't gotten the stuff for over a year and the Dad was saying please get some so when we have to leave so early we have fast food for breakfast. The biggest problem is that's not how the kids eat it. They chow like nobodies business and the great big bags of bulk Malto meal is gone like in a day or faster depending on who is home to consume. So between my mindless stress eating and their sugar fast seeking it just cannot come in my house again. Besides 4-H Peewee was a nightmare tonight because they were all so hungry from quick non filling carb meals that had no protein carryover, they whined that they wanted off the horses after hauling 30 min to the arena. Satisfying pancakes with doubled up eggs and some sausage will just have to be the mainstay at this house.

Miles:running 2 walked 1.5
Breakfast: Dumb cereal for everyone else. I had a nice cream cheese and blueberries.
Lunch: Dumb cereal no one wanted real food I ate salmon steak.
Dinner: They of course went right for the cereal and I talked some into eating venison. I also made a nice spinach havartti cheese egg fritatda.

146.6 Aren't you glad you can self sooth.

Maintenance going well, just need to have my body realize

that this is where the thermostat needs to stick.

It has to become a metabolic habit for it, if that makes any sense.

Little guys soothing technique.

Journey Beyond Survival: BOO

Jer has a binky and we try and try to get rid of it, but you see it's all we could put in his little mouth for 7 months before he was allowed to eat. Now I have days I would like to be rid of it especially when he loses it for the night and cries and cries that he needs it so much. It gives him a soothing factor now and back then when the needles poked and the tubing came undone or the noise was unbearable he sucked it. It was the one thing that he knew they would always give him when Mommies arms or Nana's or Daddies or Papa arms were not there to hold him, he could suck that thing so hard it pushed away his little fears. It kept his mind occupied on doing something else besides hurting or fearing that he would not get enough air. I guess I can keep waiting to be rid of that soothing little item if it means he is a happier baby.

First Photo as a newborn in NICU with his little tiny purple hospital binky.

5 Months old with Tracheostomy still living in the NICU.
9 months old and finally in our own home. Feeding tubes sat monitor lines and oxygen tubing very much our friends everyday but no Tracheostomy.
Our many binky trials until we found just the right one that he liked again after the trach was removed.
Picture taken just last week when I tried to take the binky so I could get a photo with the cute clean teeth. Not happening as you can see it is going back in the mouth to do it's soothing job at 4 years old.
Please go vote by clicking the link on my right top side called Rett syndrome do it for this little baby who's only means of escape sometimes can be her little binky. At least you are able to push the button and make a difference for her when she can not do that for herself. Go read how she relives her stress in a traped body.

147.2 YIPPY snippy.

So far the tacos with the bread outside wrap hasn't hurt will see what the next day brings. I have had one of those emotional days that come with the hormones and just glad I made it through it. I also have boys who keep dumping stuff for some reason so the vacum has had to be running none stop its seems.
Breakfast: Orange and sunflower seeds.
Lunch: Curried salmon and a big salad with boiled eggs.
One very big laugh. My pretty girl happened to walk downstairs early without putting her contacts on. She stepped right on one of the sticky mouse catching pads and it stayed to her foot. Now why would it be in the middle of the room well cause a mouse was stuck there to and had it's front feet were not attached and were able to pull itself along and moved it to the middle of the room. Scream ya and more SCREAM everyone in the house that was asleep was not anymore. I was horrible and laughing so hard because here she was with her foot in the air screaming and begging for help to have me pull it off (no way!) which it did slowly fall off. She had been fixing herself breakfast and didn't eat needless to say after that. Boys came to both our rescues and got rid off the whole mess and I did stop laughing, but not till I told Hubby what the whole thing was about. She sat there looking at me like I was the meanest person on earth. She really does hate snakes and mice.

146.6 Looks like this is my bodies settle point, the 46 number.

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I awoke to the most horrible headache at 5 o'clock. I could not go back to sleep at all. It will not go no matter what I have done. Took aspirin, ate food, drank water, took potassium, magnesium, calcium, B12. Can't find the blood pressure cuff today. That's the last possible answer to whatever my problem is this long drawn out morning unless I am getting one of those dang head colds that seems to be going around.

I had so wanted to go for a long run but to pound in the feet and the top of your head is not a friendly kind of idea to my body I don't think.

Breakfast: Orange juice, apple, apple Laurabar and an egg scrambled.
Lunch:Part of the burger off a hamburger. My little guy decided to eat it and I gave it away willingly. Got a grilled chicken, ditched the bread lids and ate the lettuce and tomatoes as the lid.
Dinner:Ate my leftover of the yummy hamburger casserole stuff with quinoa I made earlier in the week and put away in freezer for a later date.
My headache finally left late in the afternoon and I went to bed early. I want to run in the morning.