February 26, 2010 175.3 BMI 29.92

Only tiny little ounces lost but I will keep going. I sat at this weight for over a year and I am sure my body is hiccuping here and not wanting to let go of the familiar. I think I went over the 500 cal limit. I felt very very full last night. I have thought a lot lately about how I often would skip breakfast and lunch in the name of staying low in my cal amount ( thought that's not what I would have called it back before learning to count calories) and then eating dinner and still not losing any weight the next day. Maybe I was starving myself to a certain point over the past year. I know that your body will not release fat if it thinks it is going to be in a starvation moment. I think that is some of what my body was acting like. Also about three years ago for at least 7 months I wasn't in a position or didn't take the position to cook my own food and ate out a lot. Flooding my body with all kinds of overly heavy foods that it couldn't take. Just like Dr. Simeon's talked about, making your body have more then it can handle so it sends it to the extra storage bank that will not release it shame on me.

I am feeling like my core muscles need more strengthening. I have been using cabbage and red leaf lettuce and today I am getting spinach leaves so they are smaller and easier to eat on a plate. I love it now when I wake up I do not have that groggy tired feeling. Unlike when your growing a baby and tired all the time. It also helps that all my babies sleep pretty much through the night now thus I sleep to.

Lunch shrimp, and tomatoes with a stevia reducing sauce that was the best. I crushed my melba toast on top and felt full again. I took my apple with me and went shopping. This amount of calories burns so fast. I am hungry by the time dinner hits. I spread my apple in between the meals today. and that helped me get through. I even ate my toast while I was cooking my dinner cause I couldn't wait. Dinner was hamburger, cucumbers grapefruit salad. On a side note; I froze the whole time I was shopping and it was really a very nice day outside. I wore my coat all day and night actually. The day before I was burning and hot what strange body sensations. As I look back through the week I realize that I had lots of emotional arguments going on in my head about what it was that was really working or is it just the reduction of eating less. Yet when I review I eat about the same, more on some days meaning skipping breakfast and lunch often in the past and eating at the evening meal only. I do drink more water then I used to. These foods do burn faster then the kinds I ate so that is changed and the meat portion is smaller. Well all I can say is the body is amazing if we just learned how to use it better.

February 22, 2010 179, BMI 30.56

IT REALLY IS WORKING! I want to tell people and then talk myself out of it. I need to be believable and I am just starting so calm down girl. I could have gotten it for so much less money back when whoever it is that called me and told me about it and I dismissed them, good grief that was stupid on my part. But I guess we each have to learn and come to acceptance. Water sure holds a lot of energy inside it if we will just partake of it. I have no more headache or pressure from the water intake I also am not having to have as many relief stops to empty the water out of me. I am getting through the day all the way without the usual burn out feeling that hits me around 2 to 4 p.m. The pounding is still there, but my blood pressure is normal. I think about it for a bit and remember that I have at one time been in renal failure and this was kind of what I felt like when I had IV"S in me and all that fluid inside. The big difference is that my tissues are not holding the water this time it is flushing through and that pounding must be my kidneys working to move it out. I wonder if it will lessen over the next days and my body gets adjusted to taking the 2 liters of water that we should all have as adults. My partner lost 3 lbs and thinks she must be just having dumped a ton of water off her. Her turn to be skeptical. She says she is hungry to much and grouchy. As I eat my lunch I think I must have been starving myself through the years. Shrimp and tomatoes with curry sauce. Melba toast and apple. Dinner is Mongolian Beef and Cabbage, orange and grissini sticks. Yuck won't be trying that recipe again. To much cabbage maybe. Skeptical again is it the HHCG or is it just the diet that is making me lose the weight? Would a light amount of working out make me drop more? I feel really grouchy also and emotionally wrung out what is going on here I wonder. Stop doubting and stay true I tell myself and Goodnight.

February 21 2010 Holy Smokes It worked. 180.8

More would have been nicer but ok everything that I packed on is gone. Dr. Simeon's states that there will be about a one pound loss each day. There sure better be. Why am I still being skeptical I think to myself. Maybe because I am using the homeopathic version and not so many people have posted about that route so it makes me wonder. A light curry 1/2 apple, chicken salad and a cheat with fishy crackers. What! why a cheat, is it cause I am being told to stay within a certain food agenda and I psychologically must get over it in my brain. I am slightly hungry. So I eat the rest of my apple around 4:00 p.m. and feel mad at myself. I do not even like those stupid cheesy things. Good grief my HCG partner in this tells me that's not really much of a cheat since it was only a few and they are so tiny. Well for dinner I made myself go without the bread sticks and felt a bit better about cheating. Besides how do you know that it will affect you that much and you can't get back what you do not know. Please please body let a pound go tomorrow. Dinner was a beef stew with tomato as the veggie and orange.