I reserve the right to not put the scale reading on today.

I really do not want to blog today but I am driven by a goal to keep a record so that I am accountable to this weight loss goal that I have made. I am going to talk about the fact that I fit in all those skinny jeans that have been stored in my closet. Now not skinny in the skinny popular statement just skinny to me size 8 and I can now do the buttons up without sucking to hard on my gut.

I remember the day after my first boy, who is faraway, was born and I tried to put my old jeans on that I wore pre-pregnancy. No one told me that I would need to wait a bit to fit in. My Mom was not there to help me pack the bag and help my brain realize those things. I just thought that I would pop back to a pre-pregnancy shape and fit. Let me tell you how shocked I was to not fit. Hey I had gotten that big ball in the belly area on the outside now what gives. I then had to shove them back into my suitcase and put my big fat clothing back on. I even had to wear those dang things for a few weeks after till I could go get new clothing or pants I should say. Standing in the dressing room was not so happy a moment as I got pair after pair slowly moving up in size way past what I had ever worn before. I wore a size 5 or 6 back pre-pregnancy. I finally wrapped the brain around the fact that it was not going to ever happen for that old size. Even today as I feel grouchy at the scale and have no desire to post the weight I can fit into my size 8 and feel great because they are way smaller then last years size 14 jeans but the size sure likes to play with your brain.

I must focus on the fact that my thighs do not touch together anymore rubbing when I run or walk. My hips are very slim and there is no fat pad on the back side that makes me look like I need to cut a small hunk off. The arms are very defined not as nice and defined as mizfitonline.com but getting there. My muscles ache in lots of ways but it's the kind that makes me say yeah I am getting back in shape and feeling pretty great. So ya let me focus on that today instead of the scales. Oh yea doing a steak day and eating only an apple.

I am so much more in shape then what the scale had to say this morning.

Did stretching, my hip needed it after that dang long run Sat.

137.8 Life went into over busy mode there for a few days.

Fri. Scale read 137.6 That steak day did not work so well. Not sure if it is because there is a lot of muscle building going on or what but I sure didn't drop back down to where I should have been or like the protocol promises. I also missed the water drinking that I should have done.

Today I did part of my stretching with Denise Austin video and 50 sit ups and crunches.

Saturday posting also. 137.8 on the scale.

Yep you can tell not enough water drinking happening yesterday.
Today the Hubby took me on a long workout. I was only supposed to run 3.5 miles today in my schedule's plan towards a 10K. But he wanted to show me how to work on cross training along with the running. So after .42 of a mile warm up we took off up the side of the mountain range that runs along our home. He wanted me to run, no way was I going to fall down I told him so I did a half gimpy kind of run but mostly walked fast because there were big rocks to cross over. Upon reaching the top we took off back down the side hill and met up with the side of the road that I usually run along this ended up being about 1.29 or a bit more of a mile. Then we preceded to run up a steady slow incline way past 3 miles but that was my fault because I forgot that a cattle guard was the turn around point. After awhile he said I am sure we have gone well over 3 miles. I kept saying well where is the fence that I saw on my Google map which goofy me had already passed but kept looking out over the distance thinking the fence would come back and meet the road soon that was out there in the distance. Upon arriving home we consulted the map and looked at the length we had gone, total over all was 5 miles with the mountain hill hike which I had not run but the rest measured out to 4.5 miles. WOW I think I over did it just a bit considering I didn't have to go that far yet.

Things he kept saying to me.

Run straight

Move your arms straight not side ways.

Lengthen your stride out.

Breath in a pattern.

Keep loose hands not fists.

Hold your body straight no sideways moving, your off balance.

A few other things that were personal because he was watching my behind.

He can walk as fast as I can run so he did a lot of catching up to me instead of running ahead of me.

I survived driving kids to get candy. Yes I ate some yes I am going to pay in the morning scale reading

And just for the record this is my least favorite holiday. I think its a manufactures greatest plan to get us fat and make parents crazy with wild children but unfortunately my hubby loves it and so do my boys all dressed up nasty and scary like this year. Jer he is a sugar alcoholic and hopefully I can get him back to eating anything nutritious in a few days.

What do you do let them eat it all in one big binge or take it and dole it over the week? I have done it both ways this year they are binging because I want it gone and fast.

136.0 Body Sculpting.

So the scale is ok and not kicking me to bad. Yesterday I only ate a glass of milk handful of almonds Chocolate candies that I mixed out of my yummy recipe, see links from the past, and homemade stuffed peppers. The stuffing was lean beef with tomatoes sauce and cheese and mushrooms. I had thought about trying another steak day back to back and then decided to just stay low in my portions. I was just not hungry at all the whole day until the evening when the cooking smells wafted out of my oven from the peppers. Today I am still sticking to small portions but adding almonds more kinds of veggies and salmon stickes that are very spicy. A taco with lots of beef and lettuce onions and tomaotes. Oh and a touch of sour cream

BODY SCULPTING GOING ON OVER HERE.

I once danced ballet and then in Highschool pop and modern dance. So now I am doing a bit of the old which resembles that link above with my pilates and new cool video from Lynn. Simpley moving and strengthening everywhere is my goal from here on out.

Running today 1.5miles, working on a plan for a 10K goal.

137.4 Eating raw

Part of the Dr. discussion yesterday was that he told me he never says to someone who wants to lose weight "if you want to lose weight go start exercising." Instead he says "cut what you eat down and make it raw." Why raw, well because your body has to work harder to burn the raw foods down so your bodies calorie burn is better. Now if you have say a child like Jer it is better to cook all his foods so that he gets a higher easily broken down calorie amount since he eats so little in the first place. If you want to be in better shape and have better muscle mass that's when you should exercises but it is not going to make you lose as much as if you cut your portions of eating down. So there is a bit of diet to this not just the HCG at work but that's ok because it has worked for me so I will keep on doing a round every once in a while if its necessary to stay down on the scale and the inches.

This morning weight is now back to what it was a few days ago. THANK GOODNESS I was getting worried. I do not know why I worried because I put pants on this morning that I wore back 12 years ago. I had kept them saying I lost somehow once I can do it again. They were some brand new ones that I had gotten and then ended up pregnant with my 4th child. That was the year I had returned to my 110 pound weight for the first time in 10 years since getting married and having my very first pregnancy. Wow a person who has had 7 children and 10 pregnancies really truly ca get small again. I am living proof of that possibility.

SO ALL of YOU IF I CAN YOU CAN. JUST DO IT.

Breakfast: Water with chocolate Stevia

Lunch: Raw spinach, 2 melba rounds, apple and then killer sandwich with the Hubby.The veggies inside were all raw but and the bread was whole wheat but way to much and out of protocol and the turkey most likely has a sugar added as it was from a deli cut. I do not get to eat dinner is what I have decided after the sandwich. . When you hit that major starve stage because it is hours past regular eating it just ends up not being a very good thing and I just need some food today who cared what it was by the time it hit 2:oo pm

148.4 Beautiful Day of rest.

We all slept in and it felt delicious. We came home so late from all the celebrating that we couldn't get up and going very early. Our pretty girl raced her own race after my race with her horse on the barrels, dang she didn't win but she had tons of fun. Finally after sleeping in I kicked into gear and the whole family moved an hour before we had to leave for church thank goodness our time is in the afternoon this year we would be having a rough time getting there. I am slightly sore in a few spots but over all the aches are not to bad today. I think my body is getting used to the 3 miles, time to move to a higher race length goal. 5 miles here I come now to find a race goal.
Foodie: Protein drink and steak for dinner. I wonder if it will bring down that scale that has had a rise in numbering. I am not to worried because there are some very strong muscles that are replacing the flab spots and I am sure they weigh more.
Early to bed I hope but with wild boys around who slept in I do not think that is going to be my luck.

168.9 Wii 28.83 BMI 167.8 New scales

Finally back to a six number. Last night was rough I got hungry so took another spray at 9:30. It seemed to help me not feel that groaning hunger. I might have to start increasing how often I spray back to what I started at. At first I was doing six sprays six times a day then I shifted to seven sprays three times a day. Well today we will see if I have to add that forth spraying time in. I did leg lifts on my bed this morning holding on to the headboard and not hurting my backside. A set of 10 two times. I can see my chin that is a very nice sight. Things I have noticed, my face skin is soft after that detox bath. Yes I soaked all but my nose and it felt very nice this morning. Also I have very terrible cracking fingers in the winter weather so going without lotion made me very nervous. I mean I use neosporin and have band aides on my finger ends all the time, so it has been nice to start feeling my skin be very soft on my hands also. I do wear gloves to wash any dishes at all times and whenever I clean anything to keep them protected but it's been alright so far.

Lunch I am having low cal white fish with grapefruit marinade and of course the rest of the grapefruit half. On a bed of spinach with the melba toasts on top.

I have energy again today wow yesterday was discouraging and disappointing. I found a great YouTube video about a wonderful diabetic women who is very encouraging Mumzeeee. If I knew how I would put a link of just her vlogs about her journey but hey not that technical and do not want all the other ones that come along with the hook up that you have to use. So go find her, she is funny and encouraging and helped me get through my day yesterday.

Dinner a hamburger picante sauce wrap in lettuce and no melba rounds. I am going to count my tomato as a fruit today even though that's not how the Doc looks at it but well I was never raging starving hungry the whole day like yesterday so I didn't eat any tonight. I can not believe how crazy famished I was yesterday and then today be super fine. It must all go to certain fat stores being emptier in some spots then in others ( totally uneducated guess on that theory just stated). So I can feel the pull of muscles in my belly tonight where I did the leg lifts and the tightening up of that area NICE.