164. lbs Movein on down again.

WHEEEW at least its moving down again. I have 5.4 to lose to get back to the ending point of my first round. I was so scared that it would not go down. Why did I feel that way when I knew it worked the first time I did it. I am not sure except that our brains as women (can't speak for a guy) can really tell ourselves some whopper lies and talk us out or in whatever that matter might be. I still think back to when I didn't think I was in an Obese category and that others were and the lie I gave myself. Thank goodness I at least tell myself more positive things more often then negative things. The joy to feel so energized and able to get stuff done is wonderful. Now let me be honest here. The kids can destroy the work I did in a matter of moments and I feel like I will never be unburied from the laundry land that 7 kids (that is including the hubby) make. There are two of them that do their own laundry but there is always some of theirs in ours. The dishes have to be done many times over and without fail every time I mop I wonder why I did because two seconds later something is dumped on the clean floor. I tell myself this too shall pass over and over again. I have no room to be OCD with this many kids in my house.

I have to make a chart for my measurements. The fat rolls are smoothing out all over my body and that is such a nice thing to notice but the ruler would say the biggest changes so I better record it for my eyes to see the gradual changes that my body is making.

POWER OF THOUGHT SO SO SO STRONG! I did a RUN/WALK 3 miles go me.

Dr. Mercola has some things that will make your brain mull over I am always ready for other opinions. It just gives me more power to my desire to learn is what I say.

Dr. Mercola talkes about a sweetener called Agave. I really liked the info that I came to understand better just in an over all educated bases about sweeteners and what they can do to our bodies just because of his article. Read this link to learn more. yep click that back there and it will take you to the article.

Lunch: Fish with Curry Tomatoes and Stevia sprinkled with salt. Grapefruit half.

Dinner: Venison Steak with Stevia Carmel Onions and fried apples.

I AM 43 years old. 161. New Scale

So I have a ton of thoughts today. I am amazed at how well I feel. Like energized and boundless ability to keep moving. This is how I used to feel about eight years ago. That of course was before my last two pregnancies and miscarriage. I have been pregnant a total of ten times. I carried only seven children to birth though. Only one child out of all of them went past their due date and one to a week before his due date. Everyone of the other children were born anywhere from a month to 34 weeks to 26 weeks early. I always gotten high blood pressure no matter how hard I worked at eating well, and ok not drinking enough water. There was a vague moment two years ago when I wondered what made a person fat and why they would want to be that way as if I wasn't moving swiftly to the obese category myself. Then the day not so long ago when I could not wear the jeans that I just bought in Sept. of 2009. They would not zip up, not this again. This made me say hey I am in that same place as everyone that is fat, no not fat OBESE. Even when my Wii said it I was in denial until yesterday when it said overweight instead of obese for the first time since we got the darn thing two years ago.
Have I tried to lose weight YES. Call me treadmill girl, but I could not go over the speed of 2.5 without getting breathless. Ask my sister-in-law I am sure she would have loved to pick up the walking speed on our bike trail. I even would try to work with my sons when they wrestled like I had in the years before the age of 40. I was so over weight I could not keep up. Six years ago I even did Tae Bo every single morning for 30 to 45 min without fail.
I can not express how wonderful it is to have so much energy and sleep well and keep up with my teenagers when they come home at midnight. This is a blessing and if I CAN DO IT SO CAN YOU. I will reach the weight of 120 in the very near future and I might even pick up weight lifting and marathon running or maybe barrel racing too.

Lunch Fish (84cal) 1/2 grapefruit(41cal) 3 melba rounds(12.50each cal count) tomatoes(33) 195.50 total cal count. The grapefruit count on Fitday.com is hard to decide since you are taking it and cutting it in half after it measures a whole one but you are only allowed half.

Dinner Chicken(194cal) spinach wrap(7cal for 1c.) Orange(62) Grissini(22.5) by box cal amount said 45 for two so I cut the amount and stay within the 500.00. Total 285.5 for a round out of 500.00. I am eating my orange early.

168.9 Wii 28.83 BMI 167.8 New scales

Finally back to a six number. Last night was rough I got hungry so took another spray at 9:30. It seemed to help me not feel that groaning hunger. I might have to start increasing how often I spray back to what I started at. At first I was doing six sprays six times a day then I shifted to seven sprays three times a day. Well today we will see if I have to add that forth spraying time in. I did leg lifts on my bed this morning holding on to the headboard and not hurting my backside. A set of 10 two times. I can see my chin that is a very nice sight. Things I have noticed, my face skin is soft after that detox bath. Yes I soaked all but my nose and it felt very nice this morning. Also I have very terrible cracking fingers in the winter weather so going without lotion made me very nervous. I mean I use neosporin and have band aides on my finger ends all the time, so it has been nice to start feeling my skin be very soft on my hands also. I do wear gloves to wash any dishes at all times and whenever I clean anything to keep them protected but it's been alright so far.

Lunch I am having low cal white fish with grapefruit marinade and of course the rest of the grapefruit half. On a bed of spinach with the melba toasts on top.

I have energy again today wow yesterday was discouraging and disappointing. I found a great YouTube video about a wonderful diabetic women who is very encouraging Mumzeeee. If I knew how I would put a link of just her vlogs about her journey but hey not that technical and do not want all the other ones that come along with the hook up that you have to use. So go find her, she is funny and encouraging and helped me get through my day yesterday.

Dinner a hamburger picante sauce wrap in lettuce and no melba rounds. I am going to count my tomato as a fruit today even though that's not how the Doc looks at it but well I was never raging starving hungry the whole day like yesterday so I didn't eat any tonight. I can not believe how crazy famished I was yesterday and then today be super fine. It must all go to certain fat stores being emptier in some spots then in others ( totally uneducated guess on that theory just stated). So I can feel the pull of muscles in my belly tonight where I did the leg lifts and the tightening up of that area NICE.